It's been 2 weeks now...

Well, 29 started with a bang...and has since fizzled.  Re-ignition needed?  Sorely.  It's obviously been a few months since I've posted.  I stopped with the 40 Days of Fashion because of an obnoxious coworker.  And now, after all that has happened, I just don't feel like being particular about what I share and what I don't....

I met, by way of a mutual artist friend, a handsome, age-appropriate guy on which day of all days? My fucking birthday.  I was just thinking it was about time to throw in the towel and start internet dating again and my friend introduces me to Mr. Wonderful.  He really was wonderful...he's a single father of 2 amazing boys (that I actually got to spend time with).  He has full custody and a sordid backstory but we had many commonalities and similar values, both single parents and all.  I enjoyed all the time I spent with him; always aiming for more.  I became very comfortable with him, right away.  I guess I didn't see any harm because neither one of us was fresh out of our longer-term relationships (me, over 2 years, him, one).  We were dating casually but it wasn't casual.  I spent most of my summer with him, even volunteering 2 days of paid vacation time to go camping with him and his friends.  Just 2 days after our vacation weekend, he told me in passing that we needed to talk about our relationship.  He then ignored me completely for 3 days, and then sent me a "break-up note" by way of a series of text messages.  I saw him in passing a few days later to get my earrings back.  I tried to communicate how very hurt I am that he couldn't just tell me to my face that he didn't want to date me.  If he had just told me right away that it wasn't working it would have been completely different...but instead I just feel so stupid.  So dumb.  He mentioned wanting to possibly be friends in his last message.  I desperately want to be friends with him.  Aside from the fact that his best friend's wife is the one who set us up, and I really care for them both; I just can't keep my heart from caring about him.  My facebook news feed is just blowing up with all of their travels and it pains me to see him and not want to respond negatively because I still feel hurt.  I keep thinking that eventually he will see that I could be more than whatever it is he thinks I was.  But seriously, what sort of trash would I be to allow being treated like a dirty gym sock cast aside?  I'm so frustrated and sad about the whole situation that I find myself at a total loss still.  I feel like I'm grieving the loss of something extremely treasured while at the same time nursing some serious wounded pride.  Instincts are misleading...Happy Fucking Birthday to me, right?!

Soundtrack of the evening (after watching "Sleepless in Seattle"), the album Transatlanticism by Death Cab for Cutie...


This is fact not fiction, for the first time in years:

I just want somebody to love and accept me as I am, no changes necessary...he must be the rarest of gems with the difficulty I am having in finding him...

Day 25

I got busy last night with my new sewing machine (YAY!!!) so I postponed my daily post.  Yesterday's look was pretty different from the original look for several reasons.  It would have been far too warm with all those layers on and I couldn't go bare-legged because I knocked my knee a few days ago and it looks pretty ugly**.  Also I wore that belt Monday and wanted to wear my flats again.

The Look:

Animal print sheer blouse with hot pink tank, belted with black pants, flats and turquoise earrings.

Accessories:

**My nasty bruise:

Day 24

The Look:

Black long dress with pink sweater belted, with boots and earrings (no scarf today, too warm)

Day 23

Today's look went through a slight change, due mostly to the fact that my shoes yesterday left my poor feet a-hurtin'.  I had to wear my flats today and I wanted to wear cushy socks with them so I went for the black pants instead of tan...

The Look:

Purple blouse, printed scarf, black pants, flats and earrings.

Accessories:

Day 22

I didn't get around to posting yesterday's look because when I realized at 5 minutes to midnight that I hadn't uploaded the new selfies yet, I also realized what I wore was a whole new look not part of the original wardrobe and therefore didn't have pictures of just the clothes.  So I put the look back together and shot it this evening...

The Look:

Blue blouse, gray blazer and green scarf with charcoal jeggings, champagne wedges and earrings.

Accessories:

Day 21

The Look:

Tan tunic sweater with gray leggings and brown boots, printed faux-silk scarf (instead of the knit one, cuz it's new)

Accessories:

Day 20

This last couple of days made me feel a little better about how I've been trending this month at work.  I made a few decent sales.  I also made contact with a few people which has already proven to have paid off.  I like it when the "be-back bus" rolls up; especially on a slow rainy day.  I look forward to having the next 2 days off.  Oh and BTW, I'm halfway through my 40 Days of Fashion!

The Look:

Light tan knit sweater dress belted with scarf, dangly earrings, gray tights and flats.

Accessories:

Day 19

I finally bit the bullet and ordered my sewing machine tonight.  I can not WAIT for it to arrive!

The Look:

Black dress (instead of gray) with blue stripe smock belted, gray (instead of black) leggings, knit scarf black boots and earrings

Accessories:

sans necklace

Day 18

The Look:

Magenta cowl neck sweater dress with brown slacks (instead of leggings) and champagne wedges (instead of shooties), knit skinny scarf and earrings

Accessories:

kohls.com clearance

knit by me

Day 17

Today I sold a Stickley chair.  Wooty wooty woot!


The Look:

Blue tunic with gray slacks (instead of black), gray cardigan (which I took off several times), knit stripe scarf, earrings and flats.

Accessories:

Park Lane

knit by me

Day 16

I don't have anything interesting to say about work today.  Not even one thing.  Hmm...

The Look:

Green print dress with peach cardigan, red cable knit scarf, black tights, brown boots and earrings.

Accessories: 

Day 15

This was not a good week for me at work.  I guess I just don't have much of that Irish luck.  I'm going to just get the hell over it and do better next week.

Today's Look:

Khaki colored sweater with matching belt (instead of black) and black pinstripe pants (because I just wore my gray ones a few days ago); green earrings, black wedges and knit stripe scarf.

Accessories:

knit by me

Day 14

I went out with some folks after work last night and got back too late to post this...

The Look:

Pink dress with turquoise scarf and cardigan belted with black boot and earrings.

(I dropped the tights and switched footwear because yesterday was deliciously gorgeous outside)

Accessories:

Day 13

I'm so over this week.


The Look:

It was way too warm today to wear this as planned so I dropped the long-sleeved gray shirt and wore gray skinny pants instead with my olive blouse, knit scarf, flats and teal earrings.

Accessories:

made by Bre Lenning

knit by me,  matching hat not worn today :)

Day 12

I've been striking out so far this week and it really sucks.  I'll have to find something I really like to wear tomorrow... hopefully if I feel great I'll sell something big!  I was pretty comfortable today and I had a great second-day-hair day.

The Look:

Light teal blouse with tan plaid pants (I swapped the pinstripe b/c they're still a little snug), earrings and champagne wedges.

Accessories:

one of my fav pairs :)

Day 11

It appears as though I'm going to have to make more adjustments to the original wardrobe selections due to the warming spring weather.  I feel like winter is not quite done with us yet so I'm not putting up my tights and leggings just yet.  Today was so nice though that I went bare-legged!

The Look:

Printed dress with black scarf; I swapped black boots for brown and brown earrings to match (instead of my coin earrings).

 Accessories:

This dress is super comfy and I love it...but it's too loud to wear very often.