Well, last week Wednesday marked exactly one month since I lost my love. As I shared in our last few messages, I was going to call him that day. There was some weirdness on Facebook with being unblocked and reblocked by him and then the witch. So I was incredibly frustrated by the time I called him. He didn't answer right away but texted that he would call me back. By later in the day, I decided that I would send the link to my blog to the witch because I was fed up, and I was very nasty...I even told her that she was the only person that ever made me want to be vindictive. I texted him that I figured he wouldn't call and to have a nice life, and he finally responded. We chatted for awhile about the obviously poor decision. He agreed that it was a mistake and we both agreed to having arguably the worst month of our lives. He didn't know how to fix what he'd done but I told him that I believed he could if he truly wanted to. He asked if I could ever be with him again and I told him of course I could. He said he never expected me to call but that he was very happy I did, and that he would call me the next day. I felt a lot better after that. And when he called me the next day, we both felt even better. It was heavy at first but soon it was just like it always was. We talked for almost 3 hours that day and he didn't go home that night. We've been talking for hours every day since then and he still hasn't spoken to her or gone back to her house. I don't know what the future holds for us but we both know that we don't want to ever go even one day without talking to each other. It's amazing how fast things can change and how much better you can feel when you realize what you really want and go for it. We had a great, but short reunion yesterday when his route brought him through town. A friend asked me if it was like starting over or like nothing ever happened. To which I replied, it was like our lives together were paused and we just hit play again. No one is perfect, not me and not him but when you find something as good and real as what we have, you can't let it go despite poor decisions and mistakes. I know that our future will have many complications as the witch has basically proven and promised that but now that we've experienced life apart we're both committed to doing what needs to be done to make sure that we can be together. Because without each other, life is miserable but together it is amazing...he's my atomic thunderstorm and I can't wait for the rain!
He's going to be here for the weekend and I can hardly contain my excitement... to have him back makes my heart feel like bursting with joy. I had this feeling that he would come back to me even despite my sincere grief over losing him. I just knew that our story couldn't possibly be over...it's just getting started!
